hiyo blog blog~~~~~~~

it has been sooo long since i last blogged hur..thou it has juz been a mth or so but lotsa events took place...minor ones like outings n stuff..major ones mah..like my birthday ya..graduation ya...n juz recently (which ended ystdae)...my grandpa's...funeral..

haiz..its kinda weird..first time experienced such stuff..coz my grandmas n pas r all still alive mah..till one juz went off.. to heaven yupz~~but i wasnt reali closed to my tt grandpa so i dunno whether tt's the reason or wad..tt i wasn feeling reali sad..except tt initially when i heard tt my grandpa's dying soon n by the time i reached there..he was gone..i was too late..tt time staring at his body..so still..so lifeless..soo thin till the shape of his skull can be seen all too clearly..i cried..i cried my heart out..kept saying sorry coz my dad didn get to see grandpa for one last time as he was waiting for mi to get changed..tt's one thing...i'll nv be able to repay it for...one big regret in my life..

den i stopped crying when the wake started taking place..everything went in a blur...i rmb tt candy, jinglin n ky came to the wake..n frenz showed their concerns...reali appreciated tt..n everyday during the wake..i was burning incense pp by my grandpa's coffin..but somehow..his death doesn seems to register..the sadness wasn there..we were all smiles~~ n laughter could even be heard as we kids fooled n ran ard..but one thing is tt it brought us tgt..i got closer wif those cousins tt i only seen once a yr..

den during the last day..the day we sent grandpa's off..we walked the street..all looking gloomy n sad..n tears came..when the coffin was lifted..his death came to mi..slightly..bit by bit..voices could be heard..they r taking him away le..n when we went into the viewing hall..where all of us will get to see e coffin being pushed in *to get burned*...every1 could be heard crying..crying out..sending grandpa's off..he's gone..gone to a place called heaven..where he would be able to walk..to move ard..to be happy..no more pains from the illness..he's free le...

on the way bk..no one spoke..the bus was quiet..silence..quietly sending grandpa's off..n also due to the days of handling all the stuff taking place...tiredness started to eat in..but by the time we reached bk..somehow..we kids haf forgotten abt the death tt juz took place...we started playing badminton =Pp..but i noe...deep down..we all knew tt grandpa's gone..however life still goes on..n on...but i start to ponder...abt my other grandmas n pa..n i realised i'm afraid to go thru all these stuff once again...*touch wood*...(pls let them live a long long life...wif gd health n a blissful life)

guess i end here le..update ya another time~~ ^^

concentrating hard on how to remove the strawberries~~

*oOooopz* a hole in the cake =Pp

we'll be sisters always ^^~~~ * Ooow..sweet rite =Pp *